Why I’m self-publishing my book

I can’t remember a time where I didn’t want to write. From small ideas to bigger stories, from a forgotten Pinterest board to a full novel, I’ve always wanted to be a writer.

Then came the second step : wanting to be a published author.

Because you can be a writer, but never want to publish your work. Keep the words to yourself or to a close circle of friends. There’s nothing wrong with that, obviously.

Personally, though, I’ve always dreamed of holding my book. Like, a published, polished, physical, final copy of my book with my name on it. I’ve always dreamed of seeing my book on bookshelves at people’s houses, in their hands as they read it, on book blogs as they review it.

I’m terrified of being perceived, of course, but that’s a whole other story.

For a long, long time, I saw myself – well, dreamed, if I’m being more accurate – signing a book deal, getting an agent, having a publishing house’s imprint linked to my book. The traditional publishing path is, after all, the one people mostly talk about, the one people fight about, the one that seems like…once you’ve worked through all of these trenches, you actually MADE IT.

I think it took me a long time to understand that there’s no MAKING IT, really.

Whether you’re traditionally publishing or self-publishing, your book can be an instant best-seller or get forgotten. You can drop your agent, you can’t automatically get a book deal despite having an agent. You can change publishing houses. Your self-published book can sell, like, 3 times. Or it can become an Amazon best-seller, get noticed on TikTok and suddenly picked up by a traditional publisher and you’re a best-selling author turning from self-pub to trad. You can self-publish and be incredibly successful, while staying self-published. I guess all of this depends on what your definition of success, is, as well.

There are SO many different paths you can take, if you want to be a published author. In the end, it depends on what you want from publishing, your vision of it all and, most of it all, what works for you, best.

Over the past two years, I realized that self-publishing was the path I wanted to take. The one that felt right, for me, and for this book as well.

In case you missed it: hello! I’m going to be self-publishing my upper-YA contemporary book, US AGAINST THE LIKES, this fall 2024 (!!!).

🌟 Read all about my news to self-publish my book in my blog post here!

Why I’m self-publishing my book

I’m not going to get into a whole self-publishing vs. traditional publishing debate, mostly because I feel like there are SO many different blog posts and videos about the topic already.

For full transparency, as well: some authors have gone down the query trenches, tried getting an agent, getting published traditionally, before turning to self-publishing. Of course, no judgment or anything like that! To each their own paths.

I haven’t queried any of my books. I haven’t tried to get traditionally published at all.

Honestly, if you told me that a couple years ago, I wouldn’t have believed it. I’m not sure what changed my mind, if I’m being honest. How complicated publishing is at the moment? How complex it is to write a query, to query, to get an agent, to get a publishing deal? How long and anxiety-inducing it can be?

Fine, a little bit of all of that changed my mind. Living with anxiety already has its complications, but imagining myself glued to my inbox, waiting for some external validation…well. Once again, absolutely no shade to any traditional publishing author. I admire you all so damn much. I just…in the end, I didn’t see myself waiting. Most of it all, I didn’t see myself handling the wait too well.

Putting it that way makes me seem like a coward and, fine. I’m not afraid of it. Maybe it’s cowardice, or maybe it’s just, finally, knowing bits of myself enough to know what I want, what I don’t want and what I see myself doing. How I see myself living.

Though, I don’t really think it’s cowardice, because the amount of work it takes to self-publish is astonishing. It’s a mountain, really. That’s a topic for another day, though.

💡 By the way, if you’re thinking about self-publishing, I highly recommend Sarra Cannon’s course, Publish & Thrive. From understanding self-pub to getting started to author mindset (& mental health!!!), this course has been a tremendous help & support. Highly recommend it. You can check it out right here, it starts August 3rd, 2024!

What weighted most in the balance for me, though, was how self-publishing opened up my mind. To the fact that I can do it all… well, myself.

I get to choose my book cover (which is SO beautiful, by the way. Reveal coming soon ????!!). I get to think about my marketing plans (and get to bother my sister to help out with it, obviously). I get to decide my release date. I get to choose my editor (because, yes, of course, self-publishing a book doesn’t mean I don’t edit my book. Or proofread it. Shout out to Nicole because she’s truly incredible.

I get to do it all on my terms and, I guess I get to define what perfect, means, when it comes to my stories. It’ll never be perfect for anyone, not even for me, but still. I get to choose when it seems good enough. While I’m struggling with that, I also like to know that I can do that. Decide it, on my own.

Most of it all, I get to publish my book without having to fit it into a neat little box. The thing is: I want to write about what I want to write. I don’t want to worry about having my new-adult like books (without any kind of heavy romance, btw) fit into a specific box, or to add a gigantic amount of smut for it to be marketable.

Maybe my book will end up being very niche. Maybe it’ll be a success. Who the heck knows?

The main drawback is that I get to do everything…well, on my own. lnsert a moment to panic about admin stuff and formatting here, because, well. This is stressful and scary and, like, what if I mess it all up?

Having full control over my book is both incredibly rewarding and terrifying.

Also, I’m not going to lie: when you’re self-publishing, you’re getting way more royalties than when you’re traditionally published. So I guess that’s a nice perk, you know, if I sell one book.

That being said, not going to lie, either: I’m not doing this for the money (no author is, really). I’m doing this because I want to hold my book in my hands. I want to tell the story I wanted to tell, the way I wanted to tell it.

Also, I love being able to control everything.

I’m not rejecting the idea of traditionally publishing. Someday. I’m still dreaming of being a NYT Bestseller, of, like, doing a book tour, going to book conventions to sign books. There are different paths to dreaming, though, and right now, this is the path I chose to take.

I guess I just want to be a published author, for me and on my own terms.

🌟 My upper-YA contemporary book, US AGAINST THE LIKES, RELEASES THIS FALL 2024. 🌟

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Check out my official book trailer below! Eeekkkkk!!!

Writers, are you thinking about traditional or self-publishing? What makes you want to pick one or the other?

Readers, do you read/did you recently read any self-published work? I’d love to get some book recs!

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